Jodine's Art Space: Health and wellness

OP

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 21:33:17 GMT

I'm having an OP on Friday. I am having some scars on my breast, revised. I had a breast reduction about 3 years ago because they were just too unmanageable. He is also going to suck a little bit of fat out from my upper inner thighs...all for FREE! Just part of the follow up service. I have to pay for the local aneasthetic but... is all sweet. J

SCRAP THAT! Just as I arrived, the surgeon phones and cancelled. I have to wait for him to contact me again. BUGGAR! I have been doing some study instead. Two Portfolio's are due on Tuesday. I have done 252, and am 3/4 through 343. I havn't even started on 344...but I have till Friday to submit that one. J

Gynaecologist

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 20:40:41 GMT

Hi everyone, Im off to the Gynaecologist today for a Colposcopy and biopsy. They found some pre-cancerous cells, but nothing to worry about by the sounds. Just precautionary. Cervical cancer is very treatable if caught early. I have had an abnormal smear before, about 15 years ago, so it is not a major. Jx

Yup! As expected, all looks fine and dandy up there. Nice Pink bits. J

My Lips

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 11:57:27 GMT

My Lips

I had my lips filled last Friday. Hurt like HELL as the aneasthetic injections piercing my gums did not work so well. But I now how have BIG BEAUTIFUL LUSCIOUS LIPS! I had too! I had BOTOX the week before... in my line of work I have to keep up a youthful appearance, and lets face it, I am 39.5years old now. I hate the thought of growing old, and gracefully can just get fucked! I feel better for it and thats all that matters. I'm in debt up to my eyeballs as well, and could not afford it, but then I don't spend ANYTHING on myself as EVERYTHING I earn goes into the FUCKING mortgage. I don't feel any shame. I just need to lose weight BIG time...and all will be well. Jx

Dysthymia

Fri, 24 Aug 2007 03:20:56 GMT

DYSTHYMIA

As some of you already know, I have Dysthymia and Post Traumatic Stress! There, it is out there for all to read. This is not something I can simply RECOVER from and move on with my life. I have to live with it and manage it as best I can. Aside from that, I have an issue...this precludes both of these conditions.

My friends and family don't seem to understand and often get frustrated and angry with me. This puts their unrealistic expectations onto me, and I feel under intense pressure to meet their expectations. I often fall way short and become unwell. I am so paralysed by comments like: "If you don't..." "try it you might like it" "Just DO it" "You create this all by yourself" "You are the one with the problem, not me" "You NEED to get out of the house" " Why don't you try something different, you could do ANYTHING" "Find a job" "If you DID something it would occupy your mind" "You need to WORK" "This is all your fault" blah blah blah. I know all about how I should be, I am reminded everyday, but it is not as simple as all that. Some days are better than others and I some days I am able to functionon a higher level. My moods play a big part in how my day will pan out. I have to take a mood stabiliser to manage this now. After years of trialing anti-depressants and wondering why they didn't work...well, it was bvecause I am not depressed. Ha! go figure. I have a mood disorder which affects EVERYTING I do.

The way I look at it, the more positivity I get, (and I don't mean the supposed well-meaning type above) of the accepting, encouraging, realistic and loving kind (without discrimination), then eventually I will be able to improve the quality of my life and the affect on those around me. Do you agree?

I am a spirited, loveable, beautiful, spontaneous woman. I am aware my behaviour has been OTT in the past but that was BEFORE I was diagnosed. I hope I am not judged too badly or harshly by others. I really want to be accepted and loved. J

I had a Spiritual Reading

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 03:45:49 GMT

After my shite day, I decided to visit Vicotria Park and see Sheena for a Psychic Reading. I got "The Lot", as I figured I really needed 'the lot' that day. I walked past the booth (looking for an antique pocket watch actually at the anitique shop further round), and caught another readers eye...I pondered and finally decided to go for it. I hadn't had one in years. The partition was closed when I came back (without said pocket watch), so I loitered around outside reading everything about her past as a gypsy psychic, praises from past clients and paper clippings about appearing on Paul Holmes etc. I was soaking up the hope. She came out and I was met with a fleeting glance then averted eye's. God! She couldn't even look at me I thought. My energy must be terrible. I was expecting to be seen then and there, after all my time was precious...smile, but so was hers. Sheena had just given a reading and needed a break. Of course she did! i do readings for myself that almost wipe me out let alone someone else. I had to wait 20 minutes, which actually suited me fine. I parked myself on a chair outside and soaked up the sunshine, then played some Mahjongg on my Vodafone. I looked up to see her looking at me as she walked past about 10 mins later...she didn't say a word. I thought it was freaky that I looked up straight into her eyes just at that moment...Finally she walked past me again and said she would be 2 minutes. I took in a deep breath and said 'OK' with a big smile. My moment of truth was at hand (literally, lol). She ushered me inside and sat me down in one of two beautiful, antique, over 100 year old wooden chairs. Well used. She said a prayer. i was not to have anything crossed. I also blessed her hand too.

NUMEROLOGY

19/01/1968

Cusp of Capricorn - Earth Sign, and

Aquarius - Air sign

YIN - Fire Goat

80% Success in my relationship with Ken if we share hobbies or projects in common which BOND us together.

Otherwise only a 40% success rate.

Ken iwas born 19/01/1966

Cusp of Capricorn and Aquarius (Earth & Air)

YIN - Wood Snake (Snakes = Wisdom)

PAMERSTRY

I have the best of a possible 7 types of palms.

Long fingers. Incredible childhood pain and trauma...around age 5

I have plenty of crosses and squares?

i will live till 97ish...Thats all I really need to know!

I am Philosophical and like to "Seek Knowledge"

I am deeply spiritual, psychic, a mind reader

I am often found in the professions involved with Music, Art and Writing

I am a Deep Thinker...ponders the great questions of birth and death...lol

I love Beauty and Nature

I will be Prosperous

I will be rewarded and recognised with honours and success

AURA

Extremely psychic with about 12 inches of thick solid purple showing

NO holes in any colour (holes signify trauma)

About 6 little spoffs (black sooty smudges) about my shoulders and head representing stress

Two tone Green, darker green representing intense stress (YES!), but more of the lighter Green was present

Loads of Red and anger!!!! This woman is incredible!

Thats as far as my memory is taking me...I will add to it as I recall. J